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Thursday, November 13, 2008

It Hurts Me You Know?!


what hurts me is...
i loved you with all of my heart and knowing that i can never have you

what hurts me is...
having you close but not too close enough

what hurts me is...
watching you walk away

what hurts me is...
seeing you with someone else

what hurts me is...
i can't let you go

Friday, October 10, 2008

Betrayal


this is the end of our friendship
you ended it up...
maybe it have stayed
if you just didn't tell lies
and betrayed me...

it makes me cry...
it makes me hide my self to shame...
it makes me mad...

i guess we could not put back...
the shattered friendship we once had...
you left traces of pains and betrayal...
what a "true friend" you are...

you will be a part of my past now...
i will never ever forget you...
always i will regret trusting you...

Fwen...


Dearest Fwen,


how come you did this to me?

I trust you

but you betray me...


for all the lies you've said...

i don't even know if i can call you again my fwen...

after everything you did

i can't be ok...


i don't want to see you again…

your such a moron

with a big blubber mouth

who love to lie....


for all the things i've shared

you chose to tell them all...

you betray me my beloved fwen...


"friends till the end...

and i guess this is the end..."

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Enough


When the heart simply had enough
You can never feel any pain...
you can never feel anything...

you just feel naive of everything...
and anything...
you just simply accept the reality...
the truth...

you cannot even cry for pain...
you cannot even hear your heart breaks...
it just stop hurting...
it just let go...

"my heart had enough it's time for my last tear to fall and me to smile again..."

Thursday, September 18, 2008

To Let Go...


to let go does not mean
you stop loving
to let go does not mean
you don't care
to let go does not mean
you forget
to let go does not mean
you blame one another

letting go is to 
realize that you don't belong...
letting go is to 
allow another person to be happy...
letting go is 
freeing yourself from being possessive...
letting go is 
accepting that your just too different...


"to let go is not to regret the past but to grow and live happily..."

Lie


the past days I just pretend to myself...

pretending to everybody...

acting though I don't care about you

ignoring when I hear your name...

I pretend I’ve move on...

but I just lied...


I still miss the days we were together…

I miss the nonsense talks we have…

I miss the entire laugh we’ve shared…


I just pretend I don't love you anymore...

I pretend not to care...

I just pretend to be strong...

but the truth is even after all this time...

i still love you...

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Have You Ever...


have you ever been hurt
by someone you love?
have you ever cry
for someone you really care?
have you ever feel much pain
made by someone you treasure?
have you ever been so stupid
just to have the one you want?
have you ever given everything
to someone you wish to be love?

"Have you ever been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit, and you just pull the scar off of it over and over again?"


love is just making people stupid...
love is magnificent but it gives you much pain...
pain that is hardly mended by time...
pain that you don't want to bear...
pain that cause you to be broken...

Monday, August 25, 2008

Damn You


damn you for hurting me this much
damn you for leaving me alone
damn you for not appreciating what i've done for you
damn you for hurting me...

you're such a perfect moron...
who just wasted the tears in my eyes and the space in my heart

damn you for hurting me this much
damn you for giving me this much pain

damn you...

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Shattered Glass


i feel like a shattered glass

lying broken on the floor...

with its pieces scattered and cannot find a way to be fix again…

glass with its pieces hurt…

nobody cares if i'm broken into pieces…

nobody knows how to make me whole once more…

a shuttered glass that has no hope...

a shuttered glass that is hurt...

"a glass does not mend once shattered"

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

You Really Hurt Me...


We’ve become close but then I don’t know what happened
I know I have done something wrong or say hurtful things but you hurt me too…
I can’t believe you make me cry…
That you will hurt me…
You made my life a damn mess…
I guess this really happens when you fall in love with the wrong person
I’ve taken a deep fall…
I can’t even say goodbye that easy…
You may think that I hate you and I really do…
But at the same time I love you…
I know it doesn’t make any sense…
But it is how things happen…

After all of this damn feelings… I know I can’t lose something… Something that- in the first place I really never had…

I Love You

Things got worst for the past months. I'm confuse about my feelings but now I am sure then. Now, I’m in love with you. I’m sure I’m in-love with you. The sad thing is I can’t have you…

I love you
But I know we don’t belong…
I know it can’t be “us”…
I wish I could turn back time
And cherish the days that I have you…

I wish I could …
I wish I could have you back…

I love you even though
I couldn’t have you...

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

I'am a BITCH


I stand up for myself and my beliefs,
then they call me a bitch

I stand up for those I love,
then they call me a bitch

I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things My way,
and they define me as a bitch

I won't compromise what's in my heart
I live my life MY way,
then they call me a bitch

I won't allow anyone to step on me
I refuse to tolerate injustice
It means I have the courage and
strength to allow myself to be me,
and they all call me a bitch

so try to stomp on me, defuse my inner flame
squash every ounce of beauty I hold within
You won't succeed
And if that makes me a bitch, so be it
I embrace the title and I'm proud to be a bitch!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Life Today...

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.


We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.


We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.


These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.

Remember:

  • spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever
  • say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side
  • give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
  • say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
  • hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
  • Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.


AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.


Message by: George Carlin

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Friendship...


Our foundation
Is our friendship
We laugh in everything
And anything

We are different in so many ways...
We have different interests...
Different hobbies...
Different trips...
But hey we still cross the same road...
The road of friendship...

Glad to say I met them
The friends for a lifetime
God knows I needed them
And forever I will treasure them

They mold me
And they compose a part of me...

Friends are the chocolate chips in the cookie of life.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Guilty...


Guilt the feeling I am bearing…
It is the actions I've been regretting
I feel ashamed- ashamed of my actions…
Embarrassed- embarrassed of my decisions…
I have also shortcomings in life
That I struggle for myself…
I have to take some action
and accept my friend's reaction…
Lately has been a chaotic world for me
I'm too confused
and now I've been ashamed…
I'm guilty of what I have done
I'm damn guilty of everything...

Guilt an insight that comes a day too late...

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Look At Me


Sometimes I feel like a book on a shelf
Standing alone- all by myself
People around just pick me up and used me
And then go...
They only cares about my eye-capturing title or cover
They don't even bother to open- to see the content
To see the real me...
They don't even care if I'm torn deep inside
They just go- leave...
I wish they would even bother to see what I'm really about
To see the real me... To love me...

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Loneliness

Lonely, sozinho, solitario, aislado, alone, lonesome, unaccompanied... A sad word with a sad meaning attached.

In life you have to encounter lots of time that you feel alone- having no one to talk to, no one to laugh with, and no one to accompany. It is like a feeling of empty world with no existing organisms in it.

It is a horrible thing that you have all the time in world but still you do not have someone to share it with. It is nice sometimes to be alone but sometimes it really sucks. It is horrible when that empty feeling inside tells you your missing something that is very important.

Yes, having a relationship is good thing to overcome loneliness. But if the time comes that you need to be apart your soul just struggle for being lonely at that time. Not having someone to share with when something special happens...

"Loneliness a sad word which makes your soul aches for not having someone to be with."

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Separation

Separation, separación, frånskiljande, afsplitsing and so on... It means the same thing BREAK-UP. Separation is one of my hated words in Mr. Webster's Book. Why does this thing exist anyway? A painful word that nobody can explain why it even exist.

Separation a painful word that even child feels--- When a child is separated to his mother he cries his heart out loud. See how painful it is? Everybody has to suffer because of this thing... Everybody gets hurt because of this...

Yes, we have to do some things in our life that needs to separate us from our love ones. Greener pastures. Space. Work. Life. Love. Name it and it is applicable here. People just have all the ways and reasons to SEPARATE- just to have things work better for them. Not even caring that they may hurt someone or they may hurt their own self...

People are just too complicated to spell out.

Separation the thing I hated in this world. The most ridiculous word ever exists! Painful word that do nothing but create tears in the eyes of a person.